压迫感

我不明白。。
为什么你还是要把我当小孩
我有自己的自主权
为什么一定要依你说的去做， 你才满意

你的爱，让我很压力！！！

你的关心，让我透不过气！！

我只是想让你知道
我做的每一个决定都经过深思熟虑
我并没有把它当儿戏

我要的是支持，不是你的臭脸。。。
为什么我们不能像朋友一样相处呢？
为什么你一定要高高在上的要我遵从呢？？

到底我要怎样做，你才对我感到满意？？

愁

少年不识愁滋味，

爱上层楼；

爱上层楼，

为赋新词强说愁。

而今识尽愁滋味，

欲语还休，欲语还休；

却道天凉好个秋！！

她

你好，我叫卡雯
一个普通得不可以再普通的女孩
一个再不是一字头的女孩
她很爱很爱他的朋友

她既坚强也很脆懦

既勇敢也很胆小

既爱笑也很爱哭

她尝试爱她身边所有的人
就好像她的主一样的爱世人

她并不完美
也并不可爱
你可以在她身上找到很多大大小小的缺点
但她也有别人无可代替的特征

她不在乎她在你心中有多轻的分量
因为她只要成为他的唯一
虽然还没遇到神所安排的他
但她愿意耐心等待

她很爱胡思乱想
他有时很悲观
但，只要还活着
她就可以笑着面对！！！！

她是一本若你没有仔细阅读
就不可能明白的书
你若不读到最后； 你就永远觉得她很神秘

我就是一个这样的女生。。。
一个爱主， 爱她的妈妈，爱她身边每个人的女生
最后，我想说：
“你好，我叫杨嘉雯”

sad

i m definitely STUPID!!
i m ben dan !!!!!
how come i can do this kind of mistake!!!
down down down down down~~~

i hate myself!!!!!!
Car tutor i needed
any volunteer???
wan cry =(

???

Am i too old or what??
recently my whole body feel weak
Compared to last year ( or may b i shd said last semester??)
i m so easily to get tired
Wake up at 7am then go for class, tuition, assignments....
BUT 11pm something i will KO and my eyes will turn into RED...
brain cannot function anymore!!
what happen??
last time i can tahan til 2am something leh!!!!

some of my frens said i "dai sei"
said that i over my limit since i was 17...
That's why i will tired so easily now..
BUT     BUT     BUT....
i m just 20 going to 21...
T.T    I  DON'T want

just a short post

3 assignments on hand

and all the due date is nearby

27th April, 30 April and 3 May

all the progress is 30% ONLY!!!

i cant imagine how could i can finish it on time

everyone want to kill the assignments;

but i feel like i m killed by assignments!!!

gambateh neh Carmen Yong..

keep going on, never said No before give your best!!!

birthday celebration

Gathered with Kisiao Gang today

long time gathered in such a big gang with them

i miss the feel so much!!!

the main purpose for today

was celebrate our handsome "Eugene" and Cuttie "Kher" bday

HAPPY 21st Bday!!!!!

wish u guys all the best and stay happy forever!!

Ohya, i learn a lesson today

My Lord, please forgive me...

should give the Right not the left...

i get it!!!

just a feeling

Recently was planning my activities during my coming 2 months semester break

wanted to work full time in marketing area

since i m a marketing student

BUT problems is came to me

how should i teach tuition if i work fulltime??

but if i didn't  work fulltime

how i can pay my petrol and feed my car in future????

is blur and insecure.....

Lord, i surrender all of my burdens to you

i m sure that u have the greatest plan for me

u never leave me alone...

yes, i m scare, i m worry this period of time

but i learn and i also have to surrender to you
is nervous, is tired, and it was suffer...

but i will learn to do it

coz i noe nothing i can do without You!!!

and You are the one who plan my life...

Please give me a way that u want to to walk through

please tell me what should i do

please guide me and don't let me fall into temptation

Lord, i pray that i can get a good job that can support my expenses

and tell me what kind of job should i choose to sustain my expenses

yes God i noe without u i can do nothing

all i have now is given by You

thanks God for the blessing all the way

tuition and fulltime which want should i choose??

If you are my fren and you willing to pray for me

please pray for me too

hope He give me the strength and patient

to fight for my assignment and exam

guide me to find a better job..

Thanks!! GBU too~~

bankrup!!!!

officially bankrupt!!!
feel sorry and regretted for it..
sorry my mom. sorry my bank account. sorry God
i shouldn't spent so much!!!!!

have no u-turn d~~~
Lord, forgive me
mom, forgive me
i promise i will not do it anymore
this is the first time but also the last time
RM1180 gone in one month time....
sorry !!!!
please don't blame me!!!
i already feel regretted.. T.T

anyone give some partime job

please tell me!!!

i need more job to afford my spending!!
as long as no crush with my church activities
any jobs also can!!
please i need JOB

我知道最近的我让很多人担心了
我也不知道是怎么搞的？？
最近总是想很多
很多很多的疑问
很多的拦阻。。。。

也许就像很多弟兄姐妹告诉我的一样
当你越想亲近神，越想事奉时
试探也越来越多。。。
那一天，当我灵修祷告时
完全无法静下心来时，
我真的很怕。。。。
眼泪一直地掉。。。。

我不想回到以前那种日子。。。
我很怕我会跌倒。。。。。。


但是感谢主。。。
经过一个月的等待
有些事已经想开了。。。。
虽然前路还是很漫长
虽然我还有疑问
但是天父，我愿意
我愿意完全地较托在你手里。。。
就算多痛多好
你与我同在！！！！

i hate assignment!!!!!

once again,

i hate assignment!!!!

compared with exam, i rather sit for exam!!
at least i  no sit sit in front of my lappie 6 hours nonstop
for few weeks or months!!
i thought i have been finish one of it
but i m WRONG
have to redo it again!!
MS Parvin, pls don't take leave again
is killing me!!!!

3 assignment at the same duedate
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
gao meng ah!!!!
3 weeks more..means one week i have to kill one assignment!!
i hate assignments!!!!

and our RMM lecturer is such a good lecturer!!
please dun pretend that u are good 2 us when u r not!!!
please stop critic us when u are not show us the way to improve
and if want to scold us, please go ahead directly
i hate ur "maksud tersirat"
i attend the class not want to listen to your ego exprience!!


this semester seem like a worst semester i never have before!!
=( =( =(

patient patient patient patient

love love love love 

peace peace peace peace

a rushing day

030410 is a packed day for me

woke up early in the morning going for the only one and the boring one Moral class

and SOMEONE ffk me!!the Kimmi said he will attend the class but  end up i din even see his shadow..

after that, rush to my JIMUI gathering at black canyon!!

long time din see them, i miss my dears jimuis so much!!!!

BUT.......

my rushing journey wasn't end here

i have to take bus in 10min and rush back home for my tuition class

after that change my clothes and everything in 10min because KIMMI was waiting down stair

the event is nice...claps for the drama

but i keep dizat-ing by THEM

from 3.30pm til 10.30pm

sobsob...=(

all teased me...

pls: a little reply to jun: i m have fun but i think u r the one who most have fun~~

Easter

Good Friday is over
Easter is coming
Thanks God and praise God
He is amazing!!
because of our sins
Jesus died for us to save us
this remind me a song
 we are the reason that he give his life
  we are the reason that he suffer and die
thanks for the unconditional love, my Lord
I Love You❤❤
for my friends who haven't received Jesus as their Savior
now is the time and opportunity for you
if u wan to know more, just email me 

Jesus love u!! and me too